Life's a b!tch.

i just got alot of things to be shared with my close ones,just plenty of them. i want heart-to-heart session with people who i can trust and rely on. someone who definitely will understand, th situation i am in now. i am just yearning t cry t someone. i just cant take it any longer,where i always give way to myself. i always take notice about other people but not myself. life is really getting out of my hand. plus my 'friend' is drifting away from me,i guess she found someone new,cause all i know she had enough of me and she needs happiness from someone worthy. currently its 3am plus alre and im still freaking awake! aww.i've really got t go and sleeeeeeeeep, stop thinking so much jasmine dont be a loser get a life and freaking get t sleep no point thinking about it over again, th problem wont be solve this way, awww i've got t stop thinking so much alreeeeeeeee.

i won't fall out of love. i'll fall into you.
catch me if i fall. i need you.
i hate it when i look at myself
and see how weak and not strong i am.
though things are hard.i still have got my love with me.

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promise me that even when im no longer there ,you will be fine. if only you know what i've been through. if only you know what have i done. you know nothing and yet you claim as if you knew everything. im upset, im disappointed, i need you, cant you tell? I feel so alone now , nobody's around me . moodswings , go away please .i dont like this feeling , its killing me , very soon. sigh,i dont know how long this love gonna last neither do i wanna know it now. i have alot of people t thank, thank for cheering me up guys. really appreciate. too many t thank alre, thank for caring~ okay, i waited so long for th someone t be online, i guessed i've wait long enough, im like torturing myself, getting less sleep, not eating and sleeping late. if this goes on i think im gonna fall apart and fall sick. sigh i really have no mood t continue this post so im gonna end right here.

let th wind blow away my sadness, let pain wash away my worries.
let sun bring me warm, let moon bring me romance.
let love bring me happiness. my smile is all just a lie,
it marks my pain and hides how i truly feel. look at my eyes
and you'll see th truth. my mouth lies, while my eyes can only cry.