changes.

filled my life with colours~

i start t realize people around me have changed,which makes me feel so uneasy right now. maybe they dont need me anymore, so they just changed th way they treats me and perhaps they get sick and tired of me and was gonna leave outta my life. all i need is just care and concern, is it too much t ask for ? ohmy im breaking down soon, real soon. i hate faking a smile every time and everywhere i go, now where's that old me that cheerful me. its gone, i'll never really get t find myself back anymore. dont regret when you've lose and try t get back me, th old me. i know i've changed too, but if i know i changed why cant other people realize they changed too? it really breaks my heart, but who cares? who are those who really care, not pretending anything and stay with me when i needed them no matter up or downs. nobody really understands me now or i should rather say i dont understand them and they seems like strangers t me, i feel like i dont know them anymore and really need t know them once more. but what's th point? they dont bother about me then why should i, get a life jasmine face th facts. nobody's gonna stay with you and share your pain and problems, they can just enter your life and leave as and when they like nobody really stays and care. now i really know how painful it is t lose someone real close, but remember i didnt leave they left.

my dear, is your love a lie? my feelings, its gonna be for a year soon and yet im still holding on. you've changed not only have you changed, you dont seems t care about me alot lately. what happened? sigh its really hurtful you know, i dont know what's wrong with you. or maybe you've no more feelings, you could just tell me and dont have t hide anything. it'll hurt more badly trust me, maybe i should just leave and never come back, or i would rather say i shouldnt even step into your world/life. reminiscing th past, look through all th text and still remembering how sweet you was in th past. but not anymore i guess, it seems like yesterday was just a dream they are just memories those days are gone. this weird feelings has been coming t me once more. feeling of being used, im scared. scared you'll be th same, i want you th old you. could you tell me baby iloveyou once more? really needed that but make sure you meant it, i dont know whether you'll see this but im just gonna post this anyway, okay enough of emotional thingy.

im never gonna be sad for what is over, i'll just be glad it was once mine.