pray hard.

Happy 14th Birthday Keefe Lim Sonny (:

be happy always ^^v

im back here t upload yesterday's picture and here t scream my hearts out. yes, im always upset i dont know why either. maybe we're not meant t be, maybe we both dont understand each other well enough or maybe im not th one for you. sometimes i must stand in your shoes, im not that girl for you. th fact is that i know you're different from other guys and that's why iloveyou. nvm, you dont understand anything and you can just say its my fault. nvm, i guess its really my fault then. i hate myself for being too sensitive, because of that we always quarreled always have misunderstandings. awhile we're fine, and awhile we're been in th same point all over again. you really dont know that what you said really hurt my feelings alot.i realize i dont really have anyone t talk t, i only can type out everything here. nobody knows that im almost breaking down everyday in th room crying all t myself, crying all my hearts out and crying like nobody business. nobody knows im different when im outside and when im home. when im out, its seems like im a very happy little cheerful girl, laughing like nobody's business. when im home, nobody really knows me. everything's different at home. family's corrupted i can tell noone, because its a family thing and nobody will understand. im strong? well, that's all bullshit cause every time i said dont wanna care anymore,im just acting strong. th fact is that im not, im just lying t myself. which girl is strong? in fact no girls are strong, they need a guy t hold them when they're down or needed someone t be there. but guys just dont understand eh, only chance t talk t you but i ruined it again. great, now i cant talk t you anymore. seriously, being too sensitive really sucks. i hate myself being like this. im tired of life, can i just end it here? NO, cause i rather suffer myself than letting those around me being upset.i think i've done screaming here, im off t breakdown again later on. i dont feel like talking t anyone. just wanna cry my hearts out(: goodbye earthlings.oh and here i am hoping nothing serious will happen t Mas on Monday, will be praying hard for you okay. i await for your good news, takecare brathe(: